"I don’t wanna start all over again"

"I don’t wanna talk about luck. I hate thinking I’m not the same as I was" —- "Shut In" via KEXP.

HEAL Lyrics

Goshen ‘97

I was rotting in the basement Buying Casio’s with my friend Then I found my dad’s old tape machine That’s where the magic began I was lonely, I was having fun I was lonely, but I was having fun I don’t want to start over again Singing Pumpkins in the mirror Porn and menthols under my bed Before I was fat drunk and mean Everything still lied ahead I was lonely, I was having fun I was lonely, but I was having fun I don’t want to start over again…

HEAL

Black boots black jean black beard Walking down the street in the morning air Then I lite up a cigarette and put my headphones on And I listend to Van Etten Sing You gotta give out, give up, give out, give up, give out, give up give in, give out, give up give in Give in, give in, give in, I was better than I felt in years Then i looked to the streets and I looked to my fears I know something was going round these tears I was hurting people, so close to me I spent ten long years feeling so fucking bad I know you cheated on me but I cheated on myself I was falling way out when she sent those pictures off And I knew it wasn’t me and I knew it wasn’t her And I knew it wasn’t me and I knew it wasn’t her You gotta give up, give out, give in, give up, give out, give in, give up, give out, give in, give in You gotta heal Take it even further back to darker times When I drank too much and I took too much I lied to all my friends about who I was But Caitlin listen to me now I’m all grown up I spent two long years just losing my mind Thank you Kristian for keeping me clean And we’re painted like the warriors… You gotta heal…

Same Emotions

Step into the light here I wanna see you under better light here I wanna know this isn’t what i feared I wasn’t feeling all alone again… Oh I waited you are here, and I… Oh I waited you are here, and I… My love, my life I was living in the same emotion And you called my name, I was living in the same, living in the same emotion Leave it underwater I know you’re thinking we shouldn’t go there Let’s just believe in what we have here I wasn’t feeling all alone again… Oh I waited and you are here, and I… Oh I waited and you are here, and I… My love, my life I was living in the same emotion And you called my name, I was living in the same emotion Living in the same emotion

Shut In

I was born in the middle Maybe too late Everything good had been made So I just get loaded And never leave my house Its taken way too long to figure this out Know my name, know I mean it Its not as bad as it seems And we try in our own way to get better Even if we’re alone I hate talking about money I don’t wanna take about luck I hate thinking I’m not the same as I was I lose my faith in people Why even take the time You’ve got your problems I’ve got mine Know my name, know I mean it It’s not as bad as it seems And we try in our own way to get better Even if we’re alone The night was cold and black But the sun was in my eyes

Woke Up To The Light

I woke up to the light You woke up to my hand Reaching for the night We ran If the morning comes I will still be here Holding off the lines of our fears Save the dawn’s light shine Save the moon save the night And I call you by name I call you here In the distance we will find Heaven lies in waiting Keep the light on for me Keep the light on for me We woke up to the sun And neighbors looking in We fit so well so lonely and sad Your eyes looking back We do not know our home Just long enough to hold me here And listen Save the dawns light shine (I won’t look behind) Save the moon save the night (We all get lost sometime) And I call you name I call you here (All of the bad years fall out of your mind) In the distance we will find (Everything lies ahead) Heaven lies in waiting (Something to keep us hungry) Heaven lies in waiting Keep the light on for me Keep the light on for me We woke up to the light And felt no warmth behind

JM

I was an Indiana kid, getting no one in my bed I had your sweet tunes to play I was staring at the map, feeling fire in my head I had your sweet tunes to play I was mean to my dad, cause I was mean to myself I had your sweet tunes to play Stealing smokes in my car, with the window way down I had your sweet tunes to play Your sweet tunes to play I was sitting in the bath, cleaning off the ash I had your sweet tunes to play And I hated all my friends, and wouldn’t let them in I had your sweet tunes to play On a long desert train, with a knife in my bag I had your sweet tunes to play Under the Market Street Bridge, burning one in my hand I had your sweet tunes to play Your sweet tunes to play Now its hard to hear you sing, the crow has lost his wings I got your sweet tunes to play I’m getting older everyday, still living the same mistakes I got your sweet tunes to play Either get out or stay in, I won’t let these dark times win We got your sweet tunes to play Your sweet tunes to play

Plymouth

Sometimes I move like shadows, sometimes I move like wind But most days I start where I begin Naked in the great lakes, underneath the shine of Mars I begged my friend to just let me drift off Shower your loves in kisses, shower the world with tears Take advantage of those who got you here Let me roll, let me go Let me roll, let me go I’m bound to lose control I stopped listening to music, I kept writing the same songs Comfort doesn’t mean your better off I met you when your hair was short and my ego had barely formed It took a jug of wine just to ask you home We took black and white pictures, with your hooded sweatshirt on We were beautiful, broken, and young Let me roll, let me go Let me roll, let me go I’m bound to lose control

For Me

Waiting, waiting hoping you I would love you to, I wouldn’t hold you back And you go home, then I go away And you go home, then I go away I did it all for me, I did it all for me I wait, I wait for you here Where I’m always good, and my mind is clear And the sun fell right out of the sky…. For me…

Mirage Year

I was in a haze, and you were in the hall I was a fool swimming in the dark There was one for me and many more for you The number was a fight I couldn’t lose There were tours and songs and future plans ahead I wasn’t there I wasn’t there I admit He asked you about movies, he asked about your day You showed him in the mirror what was ours I was in love, but it was changing I was in love, but it was changing Oh, life can bring you down Oh, life will bring you down That winter when you took my love And that fucker was having his fun But my hands are worth more than your blood

Wait For Love

All the warning lights ahead You hold them up for me All the little things I said Goes away I wait for love here… And you’ll find meaning in your life and complicate it even more I tried, I tried, I tried But I wait so long I wait for love here… Yeah that’s you rotting in your room I wasn’t in love I was I here I was an abomination And there was a call, there was high, there was a heaven dawned in roses I’m giving up getting over you I’m giving up getting over you I wait for love here

HEAL tour continues on.  Our van was broken into in St. Louis.  Computers, passports and other personal belongings were taken.  Outside of that, this tour has been amazing!  Thanks to everyone that has come out to a show and purchased a copy of the new record.  We can feel your support each night.  We have a bunch of upcoming tour dates.  Several dates have or are nearing being sold out so please get your tickets in advance.

— HEAL —
Vinyl: http://smarturl.it/strandofoaks
iTunes: http://smarturl.it/strandofoaks_itunes
Amazon: http://smarturl.it/strandofoaks_amazon

(Photo by CJ Foeckler)

HEAL tour continues on. Our van was broken into in St. Louis. Computers, passports and other personal belongings were taken. Outside of that, this tour has been amazing! Thanks to everyone that has come out to a show and purchased a copy of the new record. We can feel your support each night. We have a bunch of upcoming tour dates. Several dates have or are nearing being sold out so please get your tickets in advance.

— HEAL —
Vinyl: http://smarturl.it/strandofoaks
iTunes: http://smarturl.it/strandofoaks_itunes
Amazon: http://smarturl.it/strandofoaks_amazon

(Photo by CJ Foeckler)

Watch our performance of “Shut In” on Late Night with Seth Meyers. Purchase HEAL at iTunes or Amazon.

Strand of Oaks is on tour now.

Watch a live version of “JM” from HEAL courtesy of our friends at Out Of Town Films.

HEAL is on sale digitally at Amazon right now for $6.99.